Chapter 4 just might be my favorite chapter in Desperate.
It’s probably my favorite because writing it, writing through it, reminded me that not myself or my babes will have it together this side of heaven. We will long to “get it right” but we are so firmly planted in the mud of earth and flesh that the longing is really a groan from our spirits hoping for heaven.
My babies sin, and don’t they just show me what a sinner I am?
I am selfish to the core, but I know the One who redeems me from that selfishness. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I still act selfishly, but according to heaven I am righteous. I am perfect, complete, beautiful; I am holy.
We see the holes, but God sees the holy.
And when I look at my babies and I see the holes I know how much they need Jesus, the only One who can turn holes into holy, and when He does that, game changer. My babies, they will sin, but they are not sinners, they are saints groaning for heaven. And I will see them as such, and I will remember my own earthly self and my dirt-stained feet as I walk this long, hard road called life. I will look at them and I will see holy, and I will treat them as holy. I will step down from my rank and offer them so much grace I can’t even stand it, just as my Father has done for me.
He never stops, He never quits me, and He never brings up my holes.
He nurtures me, gently leads, and is so very, very kind.
And this is how I want to be to my children: nurturing, kind, understanding…I will lead them in the every day of choices and life and faith, but all of it is really just a leading to the cross.
They are holy, beautiful ones with dirt-stained feet just like their mama. We’re on this journey together, trusting the Father, following the Spirit, getting up when we fall down knowing there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. We know the truth, and the truth sets us free.
So every day, day in and day out, we cling to the truth that sets us free, that saves us from the muck, that takes our ugly and wears it and gives us beauty instead. When we feel lost or confused, we lean into the ache that reminds us there is something better, something so real that only in moments of spirit joy can we even get a taste of it. Heaven.
But until then, we’ll keep reminding ourselves that we fight against a sin-infested world, and a sin-infested bent, but we’re on one team. We’ve got each other’s backs. We will love in the mess, we will not give up, we will believe in who God says we are.
We are holy,
we are righteous,
we are perfect.
Today, grab your babies, young and older, and look into their eyes and remind them of the truth: “if you know the One, you are free, you are not condemned (ever), you are holy, you are complete. I’m on your team, and I am so with you every step of the way.”
and, “I love you baby, and no amount of sin could take my love for you away. Not ever.”
- What stood out to you in this chapter?
- Do you believe you are perfect according to heaven? How could that knowledge change the way you live?
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