Today’s post is from such a sweet mama. Her name is Christina and she is just lovely and wise. She has a study out called, ExtraOrdinary, that you can learn more about at the end of her post. Please welcome her here today!
The clock was already blinking 2:30 p.m. I had oodles of work to complete, and not even half of my list was checked off. Pushing aside my laptop, I hopped into the van and hurriedly shoved the keys into the ignition not wanting to be the last parent in line for pick-up…again.
I knew that as soon as we all got back home and in the door: snack time would roll into homework, which would turn into outside play, which would eventually demand nourishment (dinner), then ultimately lead into baths and bedtime prayers. By the time I had my list to think about, I would be too exhausted to even wash my face before falling into bed.
All these thoughts during a short two mile drive to the elementary school.
By the time I arrived and began inching my way through the pick-up lane, I was completely discouraged and feeling like the worst (mom/wife/writer…you name it).
Pulling up to the curb, my little people hopped into the van eager to show me their graded work and remind me that they needed supplies for projects due soon. I sat quietly sulking as they chattered on about kickball at recess and spelling bees.
Pulling into the driveway, everyone jumped out…but me. I sat in the driver’s seat, rolled down the windows, and wearily dropped my head back.
When I give in to my inadequacies, they stack up before my eyes like a mountain of unclimbable rocks. Before I know it, my pity has turned into an all-out party and I am the only guest.
One of the (undone) items on my to-do list was to write an article submission detailing my parenting skills with ease. Ha! How in the world am I the one who is to write on any subject involving parenting, or anything else for that matter?
I gave myself a few more minutes to sit in silence, completely out of sorts. After a bit, knowing I needed to get a hold, I turned on one of my go-to worship songs and let the words soak into my tired soul.
One at a time I lay my weaknesses out before God.
He kindly reassured me (for the gazillionth time) that I am weak so He can be strong. So basic. So easy.
Part of living authentically as a Christ-Follower, a wife, a mama, and a writer is to allow people around me to see those weak times. Not so they can feel better about themselves, but so they might be encouraged as I determinedly forge on.
If I walked into that house, I would fail. I needed Jesus to go before me.I needed His grace to fill me. I needed Him. No one was to blame for my attitude of insufficiency but me.
After a full 6 minutes of “me and Jesus time”, I knew it was time to re-enter my reality. With every step up the driveway, I released more of me, and welcomed more of Him.
Our afternoon crazy hour was just as insane as it always is (even a little more since Mommy had refused to come in the house for a bit). But because of a moment with Jesus in my van on the driveway, somehow I was able to rise above the chaos and thank God for it all.
God demands all of me, in all of it. When I allow just a sliver of myself into the equation, things begin to quickly unravel. I could not even count the number of times God and I have had these conversations. I am so very ordinary. When left to my own strength, I fail so hard!
His love for my human failings, His grace for my selfish moments, His peace for my chaos… they never stop. This is good news.
Three Ways to Let Him into Your Chaos
1.) Take Yourself Out of It
The more “me,” the less Jesus has room to be. Pretty simple. Yet really hard make happen day in and day out. Life is not about us, but we totally make it about us! Every morning, before your feet hit the floor, ask God to fill your thoughts, actions, and words.
2.) Get Out of Bed Before Your Kids
I need at least 30 minutes (if not a whole hour) of Jesus and coffee before I can be a sweet mama. I learned this the hard way. On days that I feel like I want to “treat” myself and turn off the alarm, we all pay dearly. Chaos is rampant. Quiet time in the early hours is my saving grace.
3.) Call a Mommy Timeout
It is totally okay to find a quiet spot in your house and demand a moment to yourself. Now that my kids are a little older I find that in my closet. At least once a day I wave the white flag and fall down to my knees on top of running shoes and wrinkled shirts. It is my place to hide, even if it’s just for a few minutes. Sometimes I will sit there until I hear God’s voice. He’s never let me down. I always leave renewed, even if it just gets me through the next hour.
If you are feeling chaotic, and the clock is blaring at you because dinner should have been started– take a deep breath and let Him into your chaos. Truth is, He is already there.
Christina is a Christ-follower whose passions include writing, teaching, chasing miracles, and justice advocacy. She is always ready and willing to say yes to God’s next assignment as long as it involves caffeine and deep conversations.
If you think Christina would be a good addition to your women’s conference, retreat, or you just want to invite her to a really good coffee shop, go to www.christinalang.me for more details.
ExtraOrdinary: When Ordinary People Say “Yes” to an Extraordinary God
ExtraOrdinary is a six-week study written for women from all walks of life.
Written by a wife and mother of six kids, Christina Lang totally gets it. She understands that sometimes life feels like it is winning and tired wives & mamas often feel like they are losing. This feeling of hopelessness causes them to grasp anything they can to try and make it all work.
ExtraOrdinary will teach you how to let go of the false sense of control, and fall into your Heavenly Father’s arms. Each of the six weeks introduces a different Biblical character to illustrate how God uses ordinary people to accomplish extraordinary things. You will find that they are more like you than you may have ever known. Simply put, they were human. As you learn about the humble lives of Peter, John, Hannah, Hosea, Mary, and Lady Faith, I interweave stories from my own ordinary life that has been grounded by mistakes and a need for grace. Together we all find a common ground, and that is our need for a Savior.
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