For the Overwhelming Days When Your Heart and Your Brain are Divided

by SarahMae | November 3, 2015 8:10 pm

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Today has been what I will call a “heart-brain divide” day. It’s one of those days where my heart wants to clean and bake and homeschool well and be an awesome mom, but my brain wants to work and be creative and not have to think about being responsible for my kiddos. Oh man, I cringe just writing how I’m feeling, but it’s true and honest and it is what it is. I love my kiddos and I have absolute peace about homeschooling, but the truth is, it’s hard. It’s a worth it, good kind of hard, but you know, there isn’t much time left over for me to give my brain the space it wants (needs?) to do its creative thing. And I’m okay with this, with my choice, most days. But some days, like today, it’s a struggle. So here’s what I’m going to do:

I’m going to give myself a pep talk and you all are invited in to listen in. Here we go.

How to Handle The Heart-Brain Divide Days

Make Sure To Fill Your Soul

I called my husband up and shared with him ALL the feelings. He told me that this is how God made me and that it’s important for me to make space for creative pursuits or I will shrivel up and be miserable. I have fought him on this: “No, I’m good, I just want to clean my house and be with the kiddos and bake stuff.” And he’s all, “I know you. You’ll see. You need to be doing creative things.” He knows me so well. And thank God he cares for me enough to help me make take the time to create and work.

All to say, CHIN UP! Listen to your man. He wants you to take care of the kiddos and the home AND fill your soul. Be wise. Fill up. You’ll be a better mom…a better person…if you take the time to create.

These Days Will Pass

These days of heart-brain divide, they will pass. They are a rhythm. Tomorrow I will wake up and get on with it. I’ll get on with taking care of my people, my home, and myself. One step at a time, slow and steady[2]. Grace will cover this day, my faults, my junk, and all the rest. And what’s more, these days of raising and teaching my kiddos will pass as well, and it will go faster than I want it to go[3]. So I’ll remember that and remember that this is a season and giving myself to the season is good and beautiful and I’ll never regret it.

Fill the soul, but remember the season.

We Are Loved Anyway

Thank God He does not love us based on our bad days. Or our good days, for that matter. I am loved, I am enough, I am going to make it.

He knows all of my failures and He loves me anyway.

Yes and amen.

Love and happy hearts and brains,

Sarah Mae

Endnotes:
  1. [Image]: http://www.zazzle.com/britney_survived_carry_on_mug-168379001033758913
  2. slow and steady: http://sarahmae.com/2015/04/slow-and-steady/
  3. it will go faster than I want it to go: http://www.10millionmiles.com/2014/05/05/im-gonna-savor-it/

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